Dear Jerri Lynn,
There are so many things I wish that you knew, but not much that I’d tell you. After all, each and every tear you cry, mistake you make, and success you achieve will work toward making you the person that you’ll be in the future.
That person, by the way, isn’t perfect. She’s a little on the dumpy side (okay, so maybe I would say you should appreciate this time in your life when you “think” you’re fat, cause honey, in the future, you’re going to put on a few extra pounds). She can be a dork. She’s made LOTS of mistakes. And sometimes she loses her way. But you know what? She’s pretty prefect just like she is.
So, looking back what WOULD I tell you? Just this: Remember who you are and where you came from. I’m not talking familial lineage, here. I’m talking about that person that you don’t show everyone. THAT person is who you should strive to hold onto because for a little while, doll, you’re going to lose her. And you might not think that’s a big deal, but from this side of that chasm? It’s a huge, scary loss that’s going to be hard to come back from.
Hold on to who you want to be, and remember that if other people want you to change for them, then they probably only have their own interests in mind.
And where you came from? Well, you probably already realize that though they’re tough, your parents are good,loving, and supportive parents. And you’ll always appreciate them. But I’m talking about the OTHER where you came from. The place in God’s heart where he knew you long before you were born. That one element, friend, would make such a difference for you. Instead of spending a few years floundering around, if you remember where you came from, you’ll always know where you belong, even when you can’t seem to find that perfect place to fit in one earth.
Beyond that, younger me, keep right on doing what you’re doing. Suffer a little for me. Sing a little for everyone. And always, always, take the time to feel everything as fully as you can. It’ll hurt, it’ll feel fantastic, and at times it will be so confusing you won’t know exactly what it is you’re feeling. But those emotions will pave the way for what’s coming. Those experiences will take you along a path that not too many people would choose to follow. That’s okay. Less crowds, more rewards.
Just be yourself, my friend. Because it’s in being yourself that you’re the happiest, kindest, funnest person you’ll ever be. And there’s nothing in the world wrong with that. There’s nothing wrong with changing nothing and learning from everything.
Have fun, and I’ll see you on the flip side.